jenn's commentary

the world tells us all sorts of lies and we listen without even realizing we're listening to them.
it's evil.
it's insidious.
but it's all around and it's always there and it's just waiting for us to take our eyes off the Truth.

hey man, you don't know what you're missing
you count your curses and forget about the blessings
don't you think you should learn a little lesson
what are you waiting for?

hey man, what makes you so special now
you can't seem to find the angels for the devils
don't you think that if you learned to love a little
you'd live a whole lot more

let it go let it go
this is smaller than you know
it's no bigger than a pebble lying on a gravel road
let it go let it go
got to leave it all behind you
give the sun a chance to find you
let it go

hey man, there's no time for crying now
you made your bed but you don't think its fit to lie in
you're wasted on the ground when you know you should be flying
what are you waiting for?

let it go let it go
this is smaller than you know
it's no bigger than a pebble lying on a gravel road
let it go let it go
got to leave it all behind you
give the sun a chance to find you
let it go

how can a man not see
it seems so clear to me
but you've got to live and learn
smile at the simple stuff
this road ain't long enough
to miss a single turn

let it go let it go
this is smaller than you know
it's no bigger than a pebble lying on a gravel road
let it go let it go
got to leave it all behind you
give the sun a chance to find you
let it go


a. doyle/g. sampson/b. daly

so ordinarily i wouldn't even WANT a flower, but... an orange daisy?!?! i actually want it!

and i wasn't one of the people who was supposed to get one!

but i got one anyway!

it made me SO happy because there is no better flower!

now it's in a water bottle from the prayer room with a bible verse about not knowing God's timing... perfect!

http://www.yourdictionary.com/ahd/c/c0465800.html
how often does God lead me without my even knowing? all the time??

like when i've been going somewhere and thought to myself "why on earth am i taking this incredibly convoluted route??" and then run into someone i haven't seen in forever and it ends up being this great coincidence that i just happened to stumble upon...

or when i've decided against doing something and last second change my mind and it turns out to be exactly what i needed and i'm so glad i happened to change my mind...

people, things, experiences, sights, songs, stories...

God is good and he has all this stuff happening that i can't see or imagine or dream of and it's just amazing when He lets me in on a little piece of it...

i think my life is FILLED with coincidences that just really aren't...

it's weird, i've had a few conversations lately where i know that the person i'm talking with is on about something COMPLETELY different...

it's interesting...

i love the way life is so layered
so multidimensional
so variegated

everyone's got a unique view
the way they come at things
the angle they see life from
where they're looking
how they're looking
how they're perceiving

it's interesting...

today i was told that i am the queen of random questions

i LOVE being royalty...

not so quick on the uptake...
i keep trying to sort out what it is that God is telling me...
He keeps on bringing up the same thing over and over...
CLEARLY i'm not getting the point...
wish i knew what the point was...

a man and a puppet had a conversation... went a little something like this:
think of a number... if you don't tell me your number all day, at the end of the day i'll give you 100 jellybeans.
ok
if you tell me RIGHT NOW, i'll give you 10 jellybeans RIGHT NOW
2

how often do we do that...

i really need a job... here's one... it's not great, it's not really for me... but it's a job, right? and i really need a job...

10 jellybeans.

God's got this incredible, perfect, exactly right thing for me if i trust Him and wait on Him... but i just can't wait, cause i really need a job...

or i want someone to love me... i want to know that i'm important and special and somebody cares about me... so i'll take whoever comes along and seems to care... just so i can have SOMEONE...

10 jellybeans.

God's got this incredible, perfect, exactly right guy for me if i trust Him and wait on Him... but i just can't wait, cause i really want to be in love...

or i want to know what to do with my life... i want to have it all planned out... to know where i'm going, what i'm doing... and i don't know yet what God wants, so i start making my own plans, going my own directions...

10 jellybeans.

God's got this incredible, perfect, exactly right life for me if i trust Him and wait on Him... but i just can't wait, cause i really need a plan...

y'know, though, i think what i REALLY want is 100 jellybeans.

i dominated!

yup. last girl standing. that'd be me.

true, it was only 11 year-olds playing, but still...

gotta love the crescent boys...

even though they wear green blazers and wool pants, they're still very cool boys.

i'm sure they don't wear the wool pants outside of school.

i was so sad today! i heard someone in the hall explaining hail and sleet to a kid. i wanted to go outside and stand in the hail and sleet, but i was working.

then someone came into the room and said it was POURING out... and i could just see it through a few inches of window. but, again, i was working and so i couldn't go out to play in the rain.

and when i finally left work, the rain was done and the sun was out. the only remnants of the rain were a few scattered puddles and the still slightly wet ground. sad.

BUT...

as i was driving later that evening, a few drops of rain landed on my windshield! happy!

so instead of parking right outside, i left my car a couple of blocks away and walked in the little drips of rain.

wasn't a deluge... but it made me happy...